Clair, when
I got back to the house. Yes, and as we were all taking off
our things together I was conscious that I shunned her; that
the sight of her was disagreeable; and that I would have liked
to visit some gentle punishment upon her careless head. The
bustle of business swallowed up the feeling for the rest of
the time till we went to bed.
But then it rose very fresh, and I began to question myself
about it in the silence and darkness. Finding myself inclined
to justify myself, I bethought me to try this new feeling by
some of the words I had been studying in my little book for a
few days past. "The entrance of Thy words giveth light" — was
the leading test for the day that had just gone; now I thought
I would try it in my difficulty. The very nest words on the
page, I remembered were these. "God is light, and in him is no
darkness at all."
It came into my mind as soon, that this feeling of anger and
resentment which troubled me had to do with darkness, not with
the light. In vain I reasoned; to prove the contrary; I _felt_
dark.
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